Grown ups.

Hello. I went to Penang last Monday. Stayed there until Wednesday. Not a vacation, I followed Abah. Abah had something going on over there. Well, I have some relatives there and we're quite close, I could say. They are my mother's cousins, which makes their sons & daughters my SECOND COUSINS. We are about the same age. And, we used to play together back when we were still kids. Y'know, cute & innocent little kids. 

But yes. When I met them that day, they were not cute & innocent little kids anyway. They've grown into beautiful girls & handsome boys. I swear, they looked different. I hardly recognized them. And one thing I noticed about them is, They are all, tall now. Even taller than their parents. And the girl who has the same age with me is also tall. Like, really really really tall. And she's so pretty right now. iJelly#

The boys, well, they've grown into handsome men now. Like seriously. Iman aku berkocak jap masa tengok diorang. HAHA. Their voice, changed 360. I was seriously shocked when they said something. Garau. Okay. And we didn't actually talk to each other. It was kinda awkward when we met. I mean, the last time I played with them was in 2009. I was in standard 5. Still an innocent kid, y'know. I didn't even talk to them. Played with the camera, played with my phone, watched TV. Lifeless.

Basically, people grow. Except for me la. Haven't change a bit, which makes me feel insecure all the time. And, I somehow miss when we were still kids. Y'know, laughing together over the stupidest jokes, played together, we shared some stories together. All those things. They colored my childhood too. They're apart from it. And, honestly, I miss them. The way we used to be close, yeah. I miss my childhood.

And one thing I miss the most is, I miss being a kid. A cute & innocent kid. A kid who doesn't know anything except for Parents, chocolates, colors & toys. A kid who doesn't know what actually life is all about. A kid who used to have sincere smiles all the way. A kid who used to be happy without anyone forcing. A kid. When I was a kid, I never thought that people would hurt me this much.