Leave me alone, I need some time.

I'm tired of my life right now. Freaking. Damn. Tired. Of. It. When all of this crap would end? When? I'm waiting for that moment to come. For how long that moment will come? For how damn long? I'm just sick of my life. It's empty. It's boring. It's pathetic. Very, pathetic. Okay fine! Gonna let it all out here and I don't give a damn about you guys out there! I'm sick and tired of my life! Yes, I admit that fate is faring me well by having my my loved ones by my side. Yes, everything happens for a reason. I always said that to my friends whenever they are sad, but somehow, I just can't take it anymore. I'm tired of what's happening to me.

All this while I said to myself that everything happens for a reason and fate's going to fare me well one day. But when will the 'one day' will come? I have a wonderful family and awesome friends in my life but do you know what I really want in my life? All I need is someone who understands me, who accompanies me when I'm lonely, who chats with me when I'm bored, who asks me if I'm okay, who cares about me. Someone who would miss me when I'm away, someone who would cheer me up when I'm sad, and someone who would love me for who and what I am. Ya know what? This 'someone' does not even exist. It's like, I don't have any confidence to move on with my life. You know, nobody would understand what I'm feeling right now. 

So on your mind right now is I'm being such a bitch and why the heck I'm questioning about my fate. Humans, you would not understand what I'm feeling right now. Nobody understands, and nobody tries to understand. Well, only some humans who tries their best to understand me. Humans judge the way I live my life. Go on, keep on judging, keep on hating. I just don't care anymore. Kay what?! I'm a bitch? Everyone is a bitch, give me a break! Why do you hate me so much, humans? Why? What did I do to you? Can't you just leave me alone and mind your own damn business? You have a life to manage, so do I. Just don't poke your nosey nose into my business cause I ain't interested to poke my nosey nose into yours. 

Everyone is not perfect, neither you nor me. Everyone do mistakes. Everyone curse. Everyone gets hurt. Same goes to you and me. Would you just give me a space to calm myself down? Would you please stay away from me and my life? I've had enough. I'm just sick and tired of all this. Could you please understand what I'm suffering right now? My life is not as awesome as yours. I admit that I suck in English but do you really have to judge me THAT bad? What's wrong with trying? It's worth a try, ain't that right? Go on, keep on judging, I won't object. Just remember one thing, before you judge me, know your weakness first. You are not perfect too, idiot.

Keep on hating me. I just don't care no more. I'm used to be ignored, hated, used and lied to. I'm used to them. Got tired with them. I almost gave up on my life just because these humans who don't have a life. And now, I'm crying my tears out when I'm writing this post. I let these all out to my one and only soul sister. But I just can't calm myself down. I just can't take it anymore. I can't think straight. Being judged and hated my everyone is heart-breaking. I said I don't care right? Well, congrats! I was lying. I lied. It's just pathetic and I need someone to hear my pathetic stories. Is there anyone who's interested to hear 'em? No one. Pathetic, isn't it. Well, enough said, ciao.